I Have To Win
I have to win
Over the years
I developed a fear
To mention my insecurities,
Every day I wake up,
Look at myself,
And question my abilities
Am I good enough?
Do I satisfy the standard of beauty to my peers?
Am I qualified to achieve my goals,
Follow my dreams,
And become the star my mother always said I was?
I push myself to the maximum
Trying to achieve perfection;
Perfection that is defined by others and not by myself.
But, I never thought of what would happen when I got there.
Will I find myself perfect then?
Will I ever find myself perfect the way I am?
I realized that I always depended on what others thought of me.
I had to break free from their opinions
And prosper under my own
I am in control of myself
Not anyone else
I am the only one who can win this battle
Against my thoughts and the way I view myself.
I have no choice.
I have to win.